Transformation(s) in 2017

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Learning to relax while achieving a sense of greatness has been a life journey.  From the time I was a little girl, my dreams were so big!  I wanted to be a CEO at age four.  Long before I knew the entire responsibilities of a CEO, I wanted to be the boss of my own company.  At the same time, traveling the world, discovering new cultures, people & ways of living gave me a curiosity to always ask questions.  This drive to discover, learn, & achieve is part of what makes me who I am.  Like my dad, the energy that I feel to continue exploring will continue until the moment I die.

This drive to achieve greatness has led to suffering too.  From the time I was a little girl, I had a strong drive to be good in ballet, track, school & personal endeavours. The feeling that I have to always do more.  The moment where life gets juicy but then I start to feel suffering & anxiety at the same time.  I feel my shoulders tense and experience self-doubt from the smallest things.  One of my superpowers is my passion for yoga but also something I must do to stay more relaxed.

Above all, this year I am learning how to let go.  Letting go of an ideal image of a happy girl & women.   Letting go of my strive for perfection & achievement.  Life is about so much more than working from "9 - 7" or whatever hours it might be.  Life is about feeling good.  Feeling joy from laughing in our loved ones arms.  Letting go a little more while singing, dancing, making love, challenging one another intellectually.  Being free to be our crazy selves with a stranger or with a family member.

This is a life worth living where honesty and truth overpower shame and doubt.  The feeling that we aren`t good enough, that somehow by losing a few more pounds or meditating more often will make us love ourselves.  Love is so powerful that it breaks all the rules.  Love knows no pain because there is hope.  

I hope this holiday you spend time with your loved ones and relax in these special moments together.


Here are some fav pics of 2017!

Calafate, Argentina  

Iguazu, Argeinta

SF, CA

Miraflores, Peru

29th Bday, Lima

Barranco, Peru

Callao, Peru

Galapagos

My little nugget Mayu @ only a few months

29th Bday in Galapagos

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